Mum dreads Christmas - a year after losing her precious son

Mum-of-four Louise Hallwood says she cannot celebrate although she knows her precious son would want her to be happy.

Winsford Academy schoolboy Cason, who had a peanut allergy, died after accidentally eating a peanut glaze on his Christmas dinner.

Cason Hallwood died suddenly on Christmas Day last year after accidentally eating a peanut glaze on his Christmas dinner

"There is going to be a massive part of me that can't do Christmas," said Louise, 39, of Wharton.

"It is nearly a year now but as the months go by I feel I am suffocating. I just get days when I am drowning.

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"Every day is horrible and so hard."

However, for the sake of her family, she has steeled herself to make an effort.

Louise has spray painted her Christmas tree decorations orange, in honour of Cason, known fondly as 'Ginge' because of his red hair.

Louise has decorated her Christmas tree in orange in memory of Cason, known fondly as 'Ginge' becasue of his red hair

Twin sons Cowen and Corley, 19, and Caiden, 14, are offering understanding and encouragement to help her recover.

"The boys keep saying: 'Mum, Ginge would you to enjoy yourself'. He did love Christmas more than the others.

Louise has printed candles with Cason's name and photographs

"He was an absolute character. There wasn't a day he didn't make me laugh or smile. He was just amazing."

Louise is keen to raise awareness after Cason died from anaphylactic shock, and has almost reached her £10,000 target for the Anaphylaxis Campaign, which supports people at risk from severe allergic reactions.

Louise is steeling herself to make an effort for the sake of her family

 

With drive and determination, she tackled a month long challenge, doing 100 squats a day with a 20kg weight on her shoulders.

Louise has held table top sales, a Christmas fete and completed a 15-mile marathon to boost funds, with the support of family and friends.

Tiny knitted orange hearts are being sold in Cason's memory and she is asking people 'to take his heart around the world' when they go on holiday.

"I think of Cason every minute of every day," said Louise. "I miss everything about him, all the liveliness and cheekiness.

"You knew when he got up because he was like a baby elephant going across the landing. He used to bomb down the stairs.

"Cason had a big heart and was our little legend.

"I don't want him ever to be forgotten."

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